UGHHHH my mum is driving me insane! I have almost a phobia of hugs and she doesn't understand and refuses to, and just gets insulted!
So, hugs are good sometimes. Sometimes I love hugs. I love them when it's NATURAL. Like if I meet someone for the first time in a while, or say goodbye, or thank someone, or someone is upset, or I'm upset. That's great. It feels nice. Better.
But I hate hugs for the sake of hugs, just because it's night time and mum hasn't had a hug since morning. I suppose hugs are the platonic intimacy equivalent of kisses. And I suppose, like kisses, hugs are great when you're in the mood and everything is natural and just right. But I doubt she would force someone to kiss her constantly whenever she wants one, so why force me to hug her?
Whenever she tries to force me into hugging her, I am BLATANTLY uncomfortable. I tense up to the point of my muscles HURTING, I look miserable, I strain away, I make it the most pathetic, short lived, barely-contacting hug that it's possible to give.
Instead of taking the hint that it's upsetting me and backing off, she insits that "hugs are nice, everyone loves hugs" and tries to manhandle or blackmail me into giving her one.
And if I point out, like I did tonight, that the more she tries to force it, the more I hate it... she flies off the handle, acting like I just professed to hating her, totally insulted, and tries to guilt-trip me instead.
It's gotten to a point where I actually dread her coming up to my room before bed because I know that a hug is coming.
So I said I wasn't going to do it, but I'm kinda thinking I might give it a try. I'm going to be busy with school, but... writing is relaxing. I managed to write my first book in three weeks while doing a dissertation, so maybe I can do it again. I wrote 2,500ish words yesterday which is well over target. Let's see if I can write another chapter now...
I fancied a Sarah Earnshaw av. And then I fancied a Wicked mood theme (or maybe it was the other way around?). And then I thought I should match.
So, I have a shiny new LJ layout based on my most favourite of favourite musicals! crazyfruitlady
No, summer is bloody fantastic. Not because it's summer. No, I despise hot things. Things that are hot. Warm things. Warm weather. Baaad. All bad.
No, I love summer because I HAVE NOTHING TO DO. And occasionally that gets boring, but mostly, it's just super super fun. I'm so happy. I got my certificate, so I'm officially a Bachelor of Science now! Officially a graduate. Can't wait to start my course next year.
I might be on £14,000 for the year, tax free :| If I am I'm going to go into savings mode. That is, between spending it all on holidays.
I need a mood theme... moooood theme.... maybe I should make one. Do I have the patience? Oooh, a Castle mood theme could be FUN!
I just won Beyonce tickets! How exciting! *bounces* I'm in the rafters, but considering that on Monday's Beyonce concert THEY PUT ME BEHIND A CURTAIN!!! it's probably going to be a better view.
And ugh, it annoys me sometimes that con guests have exclusivity agreements (probably? I know some do) with organisers. With people like Starfury it's not so bad, because they run excellent events. But if I want to see Supernatural I have to put myself through a weekend of torture that I probably won't even enjoy. Every staff member I've spoken to at Asylum has been rude, there's too many people, it's disorganised as hell, ugh, and it doesn't sound like they're learning from it. I'm hoping the planned European one lives up to the title of 'Asylum' less than the British ones so far. Do I even take the chance? I hated the first one. They actually deliberately locked me in the hall when I had to leave for my train. I felt like I was auditioning for a concentration camp.
Expo is another one that pisses me off to no end. The staff are even worse. I don't think there's a guest in this universe that can make me go there, but I'm willing to be proved wrong.
This time tomorrow I will have submitted my very last assignment at uni. All I feel is overwhelming relief, and desperation for it to be over with. I had a great time here, but after my fourth year of studying, which came after 15 years of full time study before that, MY GOD, I NEED THE BREAK! Four months. Four months of doing nothing but writing stories, going skating, and scraping for pennies.
I have to go to uni to submit this and print off some more stuff that I need in less than 7 hours... I need to sleep.
If anyone is interested in discount designer gear for men or women priced at up to 80% off retail price, try Gilt Groupe here
. That should give you my invite code so you don't have to wait.
I've got some really amazing clothes from there, especially Marc Jacobs!
Put your iTunes on random.Step 2:
Post the first line from the first 25 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing the song.Step 3:
Let everyone guess what song and artist the lines come from.Step 4:
Upload the songs when someone asks for itStep 5:
Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
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Stole this from Kail!
List the first ten series/movies/books that come to mind. Your friends will comment with the character from each series/movie/book that they think you are most like. Remember this is who I'm most like, not favorites!
1. Buffy the Vampire Slayer/Angel
3. Dollhouse (I'm seeing a pattern! LMAO)
6. Dark Angel
7. Sarah Connor Chronicles
8. Pushing Daisies
9. Harry Potter